- Brief update.
- June 18th, 2012
Just so nobody starts worrying that I'm dead.
Have moved into apartment with my girlfriend.
Still employed. (I don't like my job, but I have an excellent work ethic.)
Aced both classes last semester despite the massive stress involved in that.
Went off the medication that I was complaining about before. Started a new medication that seems to have less negative impact on the academic/creative part of my mind.
Last medication was causing memory issues and anxiety on top of difficulty thinking. New medication seems to be making memory issues and sometimes anxiety worse.
$500 in car repair/maintenance bills last month.
Even with my girlfriend paying her share of the rent, my job doesn't pay enough to let me move out of the South and to somewhere with actual career prospects for at least a year -- and that's assuming nothing else cuts into my savings account. (I can't really manage a second job, given that I'm going to school at night and need to devote some of my time to my girlfriend.)
School is fucking me over on the second B.A. (history) that I'm trying to earn. Turns out that I can't just take classes to build on my minor in the subject until I've fulfilled the normal requirements for a major. No, I have to take 30 credit hours on top of the previous B.A. -- which is 12 more than I'd planned on. I'm trying to work around it, but it's not a good situation.
My girlfriend goes to one of the few schools in the country that require a B.A. thesis (roughly 80 pages) before graduation. She didn't get hers done last semester when she was planning to graduate, but that's not the issue. (I got my first B.A. a year later than I'd planned to, and I'm not into hypocrisy.) The issue is that the one time I suggested she work on it a little bit, she had a major panic attack. I'm worried that she's going to keep putting it off and not make any progress before she has to start school again -- and her school is requiring her to take classes on top of finishing her thesis. She is working 30-40 hours a week, same as I am, so I don't expect her to write the whole thing over the summer, but I want her to make at least a little progress, and I'll be happy to do basic research gruntwork (tracking down relevant articles, books, etc...) for her. (May be slightly unethical, but I'm still expecting her to actually read the articles/books and write the paper) Problem is, I don't know how to raise the subject with her without causing another panic attack. Suggestions, anyone?
And I'm open to suggestions no matter how late you see the post.
In short, still having problems, but much, much happier than I was at this date last year...or for any year before that, for that matter.